"It wasn’t until after college that I met transmen of color with radical, antiauthoritarian politics, transmen who mixed freely with butches, genderqueers, and nontransmen because it served a greater radical politic to do so. Transmen who love femmes and couldn’t imagine a revolution that wasn’t planned and executed side by side with their sisters, mothers, girlfriends, and camradas. Transmen who understood intimately that there weren’t enough of us to be exclusive about where we found love and friendship. I realized that I could be Nico full-time and still articulate (most of the time) the things that made me not quite FTM and still emotionally, historically, and politically attached to butchness. Am I a transgender butch? I don’t know. I do know that this or any honest articulation of my gender identity will never convince Dr. Harry Benjamin’s followers, who mete out access to medical treatments like gender reassignment surgery and hormone therapy based on a narrow and pathologizing understanding of ‘transsexuality,’ to allow me self-determination over how I choose to modify my own body. I also know that I will continue to search for alliances with those who foreground concerns of femmes and femme-identified people while also creating new options for enacting masculinity."
— from “All Mixed Up With New Place to Go” by Nico Dacumos in Nobody Passes: Rejecting the Rules of Gender and Conformity